Greetings From Ember & Bloom Hi friend, Today I want to talk about a kind of lonely that surprised me. The kind that doesn't go away when the room is full. After Gary died, I could be surrounded by people who loved me and still feel completely alone. For a long time I didn't understand why. Company helped for a little while, and then the visit would end, everyone would go home, and the empty feeling came back sharper than before. It took me a while to figure out what was really going on. It...

Greetings From Ember & Bloom Hi friend, The 4th of July was this weekend. Gary loved it. He was the biggest playbabe you ever saw on the 4th. So this week I've been missing him, and thinking about something that's been sitting heavy on me. Here it is. Being a widow isn't a season you finish. It's a long road. And when you look up and try to find the end of it, there isn't one. It just keeps going. Some days that's the hardest part of all. Not this Tuesday. Not next Wednesday. The whole long...

Greetings From Ember & Bloom Hi friend, Today I want to tell you about something I got wrong for a long time — and what finally changed when I stopped fighting so hard. When Gary died, I was sure grief was something I would eventually get through. If I talked it out, kept busy, worked hard, journaled, held myself together well enough for long enough — surely it would fade. It does not work that way. I spent a long time trying to stay one step ahead of the pain, and the whole time, grief was...