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Are You Actually Getting Anywhere? | Ember & Bloom

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Ember & Bloom

Hi friend,

Today I want to talk about a question I asked myself over and over in my early grief: am I actually getting anywhere, or just circling the same pain?

Maybe you know the feeling. You've cried. You've walked. You've gotten through days you didn't think you could survive. And then you look around and wonder if any of it changed anything at all. The ache is still there. The silence still sounds the same.

Here is what I have come to believe — and it surprised me when I finally understood it. The reason you can't feel your progress is the same reason you can't watch the days getting longer in June. It's happening. You're just standing too close to see it.

There's a way to catch it, though. I learned a small one, and it changed how I saw my own healing.

I wrote about it this week. You can read it here: When You Wonder If You're Making Any Progress at All​

✦ Just for You ✦

Something to Try

This week, keep a one-line record.

At the end of a day, write down one thing you got through that you couldn't have three months ago.

Heard our song and didn't turn it off.
Made it through dinner.
Said his name without crying.

Don't try to feel like it's adding up.
It won't, not yet.
Just write the line.

One day you'll read them back — and the proof will be in your own hand.

I'll meet you here again next Monday.
Until then, take one small breath and know that it is enough.

Hugs 💜💚
— Gladys

113 Cherry St #92768, Seattle, WA 98104-2205
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Gladys Jean Ullstam

I help widowed people to hold the ember of love and find new blooms. I believe in the power of creativity, journaling, and community to bring hope. Read my posts and visit my site for more information. Not widowed? Please share this information with any widowed people you know. Thanks.

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